New Year's Resolutions

Every year my husband asks what my New Year's Resolution will be. Last year I swore I would get myself better. This year is to finish that promise. But also with that is a pledge to do more for myself.

I need to exercise more - duh. I need to eat better - double duh. Who doesn't.

Here's my list of why I wasn't successful. I had two babies in two years, my body was ripped apart. I had post partum depression and the side effects of antidepressants for 5 years. I had some pretty nasty stuff going on in my body last year that messed with everything.

Here's what I think I need to do - I need to get my ass moving and exercise. (It's kind of hard to get motivated when you are getting just a few hours of sleep a night and feel like crap in general.) But I also plan to see a nutritionist because for years in my memory, even when I was young and skinny, I had problems, I wouldn't say with eating cause I enjoy that, but with how my body reacts to food. And how my body reacts to hormones that changes how my body reacts to food. I am aware my overall system is broken, why or how to fix it is to be determined.

I need to do more things that I enjoy. Like writing my blog. I have been sorely neglecting my masterpiece. In my defense the state I was in most of last year, and things happening that would have made my blog a bitch fest vs an attempt to be insightful, which would have been totally unacceptable.

I need to get a life - aka find a babysitter and escape a lot more often.

I want to master my sewing machine, and finally start learning how to quilt.

It's going to be a long process, this I know. But for the first time in my life last year I kept my New Year's Resolution, and I plan to keep up that success this year and in years to come.